Physical vs Emotional

Hey everyone,
  Now that things are going wonderfully I hardly have much to tell. After the long road we have travel though, I'm not sure I should be complaining. Actually I'm certain I shouldn't complain...these past few weeks have been wonderful!
 
I recently had a prenatal appointment, as well as an ultrasound (surprise surprise!) and once again all signs point to PERFECTION! Both baby girls are setting up for the long haul, and growing so wonderfully. A big issue with twins is in many cases (most all) one baby outgrows the other resulting in one baby being much smaller and more vulnerable once born...these babies are the EXACT same size, same heart rates, and both wiggly as all get out, the doctors are so pleased and astonished at the turn this train wreck of a pregnancy has taken. They are so pleased that from here on out I will be treated as a regular patient...i will do one more 2 week ultrasound and prenatal appointment, then like other pregnant women I will have check ups every 2 weeks with an ultrasound to check baby size and position every 4 weeks! I couldn't be more thrilled...and I can say the same about the daddies:)

So...physically things are normal! I'm starting to nest, and my mind thinks up something to do constantly, unfortunately my body isn't on board! My back aches and the stretching of my skin is becoming very uncomfortable. Small things like sitting up after laying down or walking to the bathroom (which happens every 5 minutes no lie) makes me feel as thought I'm a chain smoker who just ran a marathon...catching my breath is impossible when you have babies from ribs to pelvis. Also feeling them move has been...interesting to say the least, it's like a wrestling cage in my uterus, typical sisters...they are always fighting and since clothes and boys aren't an issue I can only assume they are fighting over leg room ;) one moves left, one moves right and pretty soon my stomach is distorted and lop sided. 

Speaking of stomach...holy cow, and  I mean cow! I'm am getting larger and larger...I'm not sure how it's physically possible to get any bigger but I'm sure I'm going to find out in due time. Emotionally this weight gain and expanding belly has taken a huge toll on me, one I didn't expect! Most of you that know me know I've had weight issues my whole life...last year I worked harder then ever to shed the pounds and I was 15 pounds from my goal when I started hormone shots (which put an end to weight loss) so here I am full of babies and craving food like pancakes, steak n shake, steak...and shakes lol. Now i'm 40 lbs from my goal weight and as the pounds come on I get depressed thinking about all the time, all the effort all the sweat and tears it will take to lose this baby weight! These are struggles that every pregnant woman takes on as their bodies take form of a baby incubator...and with the help of a loving husband I am coping so bare with my body imagine complaints and insecurities because now that all is wonderful it's the small things like weight gain and back aches that creep up on me and those petty dispositions have found a way to take over my mind. 

Hang with me, this pregnancy has about 14 weeks but the journey is far from over!

Ladies Ga Ga- They were born this way ;)

Hey Everyone,

  I can finally breath, as well as a pregnant woman can at least. But figuratively speaking I can breath...relax...enjoy this pregnancy, and oh it feels so good!!

  Yesterday was my 2nd and LAST appointment with the high risk specialist, and I couldn't be happier:) after an hour long ultrasound the nurse informed us that 1. The blood clot is GONE!!! 2. As my uterus has expanded with the growth of the babies, the placenta has moved over 1cm away from my cervix...meaning I no longer have placenta previa!!! 

  In terms we can all understand...this pregnancy has went from terrible terrible terrible to normal!! No more morning sickness, I'm not exhausted, and other then the occasional headache, back ache, and swollen legs and feet I have no complaints! I never ever thought this day would come and here it is...I can sit back, close my eyes, relax and feel both babies wiggle and giggle inside me with a big smile on my face.

  Although the high risk specialist is out of the picture this is still a twin pregnancy, and considered high risk. The risk we face though, are typical of a twin pregnancy...1 baby is breech and due to the lack of room there is a very small chance that will change, meaning a CSection is still a likely possibility (but my fingers are crossed). There is also a risk the babies may get to big, so it's still 100% possible these babies will need to be born between 33-36 weeks...and I won't complain about that either way, of course I want them growing and healthy so the longer we wait the better (for them!). That being said...Ahhhh!!! A sigh of relief!

Also, after much deliberation the daddies to be have finally picked out names! No more baby A no more baby B! 

Baby A= Garance (Ga-ronce) which I believe is the name "Grace" in American
Baby B= Gabrielle

The dads are Lady GaGa fans so these babies will be their own personal Ladies Ga-Ga:) so sweet yet hilarious!

I am already putting together a few things for this couple and your help would be great! I need to BARROW (meaning you will get your items back) infant car seats, bassinets, pack n plays, ect. The couple will be here for 2-6 weeks and if they can barrow these things while here it would save them the anxiety of bring it over from France or buying it here and lugging it back to France with their newborns.

Also I will be having a welcoming shower for them and the babies so everyone can see the ending/beautiful beginning of this journey....so please let me know if you'd be interested in meeting this family before they start a separate journey 1000's of miles away!

Thanks again for your prayers, thoughts, and best wishes...they have paid off in the most extraordinary way! I owe you guys big time:) 

A Sigh of Relief:)

Hey Everyone,
 
  I would apologize for not writing as frequently as I was, but me not writing means no news...and I can't complain about that! We all were in desperate need of a slow down and finally we got it!

 Along with a wonderfully boring week we were surprised with good news! At my doctor appointment, during the ultrasound we saw a significant change in the blood clot...it has reduced to half it's size and there is no active bleeding! For the first time in months I got to take in a deep breath followed by a glorious sigh of relief! 

After my ultrasound I was consulted on my official diagnoses by my OB. I have an extreme case of "Placenta Previa" this means the Placenta is directly above my cervix...so while discussing this syndrome we also discussed my birthing plan. I will be delivering via CSection between 33 weeks and 36 weeks. Typically twins can be carries full term but usually are delivered by 37 weeks. I can not go into active labor so these babies will be pre term. I will continue to be monitored every 2 weeks rotating between my normal OB and the specialist until my 3rd trimester, at that time one doctor will take over and we will decide which hospital will be the birth place of these two healthy little girls!

Speaking of the twins...I have been informed baby A has a name! In English her name would be Grace although in France it sounds very different! I am so excited to put a name with this little drama queen and I look forward to hearing Baby B's sweet name soon!

Thanks everyone for following this journey it's over half way over and I don't know what I would do without your support and words of encouragement! There's a bumpy and emotional ride ahead but there is no doubt that with friends and family like you I will continue to move forward in the most positive way! Thanks again!